-an idea born out of our daughter tallys' type 1 diagnosis-
- personal item belt-
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Somedays I feel like I will wake up and realize its all been a bad dream....you know that feeling. Its so real but, then you wake up. I am waiting to wake up. I am so tired of being tired of nothing ever being manageable. I think Tal is tired too...and then I start thinking about the future when I can't or maybe she won't want me there or to be involed on a daily basis. Will she take care of herself the way she has learned and the way I drilled it into her head only because I want her to be prepared and to be safe. I love her so much and don't want any reprocussions from this disease. I find I don't want to talk about it somedays...I find thats all we talk about somedays....I fear it has taken over and life is no longer what I remember (somedays I do not remember that feeling of "before diabetes"). Life feels like a daily struggle...no matter how hard we try to make it a part of everyday life we are never truly comfortable. Type 1 is always there...no matter what. Diabetes I am tired...please give me and all T1 moms and dads a break....we don't want you in our lives anymore.